Forever Always: An MM romance by Jacey Davis

Author:Jacey Davis [Davis, Jacey]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2024-05-30T00:00:00+00:00

CHAPTER 19

RILEY

My stomach churned with guilt and nerves, and I had a hard time keeping down my breakfast. I had been standing in front of the shelter for fifteen minutes now, as I tried to work up the courage to go inside.

I told Becks I had picked up a double shift, and although he’d bitched about me working too much, he’d eventually given in since we needed the money. I fucking hated lying to him. We never lied to each other. Ever. But I had to do this, and I didn’t know any other way.

It had been nearly a month since Beckett’s panic attack, and like usual, we were ignoring the issue. Life had just been moving on. Becks worked his two jobs, and I took as many shifts as I could at the restaurant. Some of the customers sucked, but my boss was cool and I got along well enough with the rest of the staff to deal. Plus, I was making A LOT of money. If it kept up at this pace, I could probably pay my tuition without Becks contributing at all. It was an amazing feeling.

But there was still this elephant in the room. I knew it was haunting Becks. I could see it in his eyes when he thought I wasn’t paying attention. Even when we were together—you know, together—I still saw him freeze sometimes from thinking about it. We hadn’t done anything more than we’d already tried: a whole lotta kissing and shared orgasms and that was it. I didn’t mind at all, of course, but I hated how guilty Beckett looked when he stopped things.

We couldn’t just keep ignoring this. Every time I tried to bring up the panic attack or the thing that caused it, Beckett brushed me aside, and told me we’d talk about it later. Or he’d distract me with kisses once he discovered that always worked.

But in the meantime, Mr. Chase was still out there doing God knew what. I looked him up. He still had an active practice. He also volunteered at shelters, churches, and other organizations meant to help at risk youth. I’d thrown up when I saw pictures of the fuckin’ monster surrounded by kids as article after article praised how amazing he was. This was bigger than just Beckett, and if he wasn’t ready to deal with it, I’d have to take matters in my own hand, even if I felt like scum for doing it.

I considered going to the cops, but what would be the point? It was he said, he said, and without Becks there to tell his story, I wasn’t sure what they could do.

That was how I ended up in front of the shelter Jay had said they were at when this happened. I didn’t know what I would do when I got in there, just knew I had to do something.

I took a deep breath and steeled myself. I could do this. I walked up to the entrance of the building.

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